I have always felt like I think diffrently from a lot of people. Well everybody thinks diffrently but Sometimes its hard to explain why i think this way.
I look ahead for everything, cutting out possiblities and all. Its just weird and unexplainable sorta... well at least Its hard to do it. The way I feel Is insane, stupid insane. It will only work if I keep it all to myself, if somebody knows then the circle... the bond is broken, so everything then has to be re-done and re-thought. You path always leads to another. It never ends until death. It all started as strangers, the looks, the eyes, the door. The sparkle the light. The OMG. Then the Silence doing anything you could to get closer... friends... class... school. It all is put together as the start. what makes you what makes eachother. Then the years pass as soon its 3 years but still all the same, no matter what. Then its born again just hit the restart button and you come back to it always no matter what as long as its there. This is what hit me so hard... I came back and it was not the same... I no longer felt the same. It was diffrent, because there was something more important in my life. That which triggerd my mind to think of somebody else rather than what it usually does, But I couldnt... I just couldnt do it. Why though? when It interested me so much at one point and now it feels like I only want one thing. I have to act like Im happy for it too. Have to act like im glad. This has happend before, and its crazy to my eyes... I am not gonna let it pass like it did before... I regret doing it and now I pay... But I have learned and I wont let it happen twice... so either I go do it or give up... I rather lose trying knowing I fight for what I belive in... So hard to understand when my mind is going so fast, faster than I could type...... What can I say I'm A deep thinker... Some people say its good some people say its bad... Ive gotten this far in life... why change it when it has done me so well.
-Isaac Camacho
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