Still Going...

So I am still going for my 4.0 GPA. Its hard to believe that I actually get work done. There has been so many people coming to me and asking how I get my things done. They never see me do anything haha. So basically when everybody is sleeping I wake up and do all my work and go back to sleep. Or I control time like Hermione in harry potter =D Well I am pledging for a fraternity and its super cool. I love the social events and getting to meet new people. all my pledge brothers are amazing. Tonight we are getting together at Chris' house and we are just going to do a lot of fun activities haha What else is new... Nothing with girls yet still searching... I can be very picky. But thats good because I want a great girl. Not one that will throw shit away quick. Thanksgiving weekend... yeah! GET FAT! ive worked out this week because i was going to eat. Um I am in my last class right now before a 4 day weekend Going to Cabos for winter break and Gudalajara =D Got the freestyle parts in my hip hop class. LEARNED HOW TO HOLD A HAND STAND WITHOUT MOVING!!! that was a good accomplishment -Isaac Camacho

Call Of Duty: Modern Warfare 3

I am Officially done with Midterms, I think I am doing pretty well this year... way better than last spring. I think ill get a 3.0 GPA or higher which is really good for me. Talked to my ex the other day had this urging question, I knew I shouldn't have asked but You can't really bring something up then not say it. It didn't go so well. Um what else... Theres this other girl but its hard to explain, Cuz this time I don't deserve a girl like her but isn't that what we strive for? for the best? Time.... Time.... Time.... is essential though. Now I am alone but its fine... longest time i've been single and I am learning too. Today MW3 Comes out.....!!! So exited! Gonna go get it at midnight! I am going to play campaign and beat it on regular then ill start playing live right away. Who else is exited? So see I am glad I am getting this game, because right now I should be keeping my mind off things, That is so I won't get hurt. And what else to do to keep off my mind but play MW3! That is a deal! But there is a catch, I still got school to do and stuff.... so I will play and then will force my ass to do hw and then ill reward myself with some COD MW3. Well Say bye to my social life... no shave november... This is my life for the next month. Call of Duty MW3 Sleep HW/Study Dance then repeat till month is over IcyBallAzz is my xbox gamer tag! Xbox is better than PS3 any fucking day! or do you think other wise? You can explain your self below ha Isaac Camacho Castillo Robeles Manhares is out for awhile =D Cya G.... Take Care or your trip. GC... No matter what your decision, Estoy aqui. Mucho Amor Whoever reads this =D

Friends are gone...

Back when I was young I lost a good friend named Jim. See my Dad worked in Alaska a couple months at a time. A father figure wasn't always there. Jim though he was an only guy a family friend more like. All my brothers and sister were close to him. He was in the war and something had happened to his legs which wouldn't let him walk. We took care of him, I took out his trash, Went shopping for him. He taught us a lot of camping and survival tips. Each day usually after school we would go to his house and talk to him. One day we were going to go camping at Detroit Lake with the family. I asked him he should go but he couldn't because he was sick from the legs. Jim gave us a lot of things for camping to use. Had an amazing week, on the way back My older brother and I jumped out of the van and ran to his house. We knocked, he didn't answer. The door was cracked open. We opened it and called his name... no answer. I think I was eight years old, We pushed the door open and there he was lying face down on the floor, faced to us. My brother ran to get my mom. It wasn't until 5 min that he came back with my mom. Those 5 min lasted so much. I walked in, He didn't move. No matter how high my voice was. He looked cold. I didn't understand what was going on I was young. They told me to go outside, Sat on the curb for the Ambulance to come. DOA... Those 3 letters. What is that? Dead on arrival, No more Jim, he is gone now... but I didn't understand. Okay he is dead? But now I can't see him? We got to keep some of his stuff because we were close to him. Jim was the only dead body I have seen and the first friend to leave me. I got these camping things that he gave me, the light up quick. They are ten years old and don't work but each time I go camping I take a couple with me and turn them on. Let them Burn slowly in memory of him. He always wanted us to do better than him. He is in a better place now, He was in pain a lot, but I miss him. I know my family does too. Boys and girls club, You were like a really good friend. We went to school together... yeah yeah I had a crush on you ha. I loved playing basketball with you. Stupid guys making fun of you because your tooth, i didn't care you were still a wonderful person. I like how you could joke about it though like it wasn't a problem. Like you knew yourself and nothing was going to bring you down. One day everybody was freaking out at school, I didn't know why Claire but they said your name. Why aren't you going to Boys and Girls Club, Im at the table you are not here. Wanna come shoot Hoops? Claire? Where are you?... What? What do you mean she's gone? Sorry to say she's dead man. Thats what people are crying about, It hurts to see one leave. Why did you leave us so early? We remember though, we do not forget. Im sure you would have loved high school, I did my best for you, I graduated. I know some people don't get the chance to do so. I did it for you Claire, I know you aren't by my side But i know you watched, you are watching us all, Jim too. You were loved by everybody, Dang your smile ha. I was older, you were younger. I saw you all the time on the bus for soccer. We basically practiced on the same field. We talked, it was a different bond though. I didn't know you that well brandon. See my brother did though. My younger friends did. They miss you, they took second place, They should have taken champs again. They tried though. They knew you loved soccer. You were loved by everybody, they all miss you. Hey man come to the retreat is going to be fun! Jacob You will like it.... You were their many times, teen life, Following christ. I remember what we would talk about. I remember what happened. We got to sleep at the Newman center. We watched the blind side together. Don't say you didn't tear up because that was a sad movie. See thing Jacob was, we grew together from christ. Yeah we liked to mess around, we were teenagers, they except that, But i loved are serious conversations as well. Rivals schools but always came together under the same church. Car Crash? Who? What happened? Questions going around. it's not your fault. A lot of people miss you Jacob, a lot. I do, Now who will I joke with at Retreats Huh? I guess you still listen though. Your up there with the rest of them Smiling down on us. Miss ya bro! People that have left friends family, sons and daughters. This is my story, we all have diffrent ones. I am trying to write a song for them. -Isaac Camacho

Fall term

So fall term I am taking CCJ 310 which is about american courts, I am taking a hip-hop class which is super fun. It is my first time being in a Hip-Hop class. I mainly learn online, watching people on YouTube and all. I am also taking a Dance Appreciation class that goes to my minor. I think I am the youngest student in this class =D It actually feels good to be young I love it! Lets see... Oh yeah somebody scratched my bike, What the fuck are people thinking about like really. I ended up buying a disk lock brake and probably going to by a cover for it as well. My bike is to big to keep in my room. I bought Motorcycle Insurance but its just a scratch, Ill end up buying a new decal to put it over it so it looks new. $13 a month for insurance =D It's so cool! Today is wednesday which is My friday! =D Sad thing I guess... I Found out today that my movement for actors teacher died over the summer due to a heart attack. She was an amazing person and shared the light with many people. She got me into acting... again I am not much of an actor but She said I a natural. I needed to take acting classes for my dance minor. She will be missed a lot in the acting community at Portland State University. Thats all that has happened, still doing the breakdancing and trying to learn, I pick up things pretty quick. Electro dance club is going really good, people are showing up and are willing to learn. As the President I need to make a few adjustments. Well Tonight Im making pasta! I love pasta. Oh and a shout out to my Dad who had his birthday this month, Love you! Miss my two brothers working in alaska and hope they make it back safe to head out to Cabos and ride the jet skis! Oh and sis i miss you too! Can't wait to visit in mexico! -Isaac Camacho

DJ Icy =D

So I go this new software that lets me mix music, and this mix board thing and a new huge block rocker =D From Ion.com btw they have some really good stuff for music purposes. There stereos have battery inside and are all rechargeable =D super cheap and its good for what you get. Well today i recorded my first mix, again these are songs already that i am just mixing up with my software, i plan on getting another program to make my own beats =D THanks here it is =D Oh yeah this is basically my life, i just started mixing just like last week and this is like the 3rd day with my new stuff. So its beginner stuff. Lets see other than that i am back at portland state with my roommate kyle zadina! its going to be an awesome year i am the president of Electro Dance Club and it starts tomorrow at the rec center at 6 =D well yeah cya! It is an Aiff file you could download it if you want but you would have to change your itunes settings so it changes to MP3 here is a video that shows you how Pulse (DJ Icy Remix).aiff

the 4th girl

was going through my skype and thought that his was pretty interesting watching the exitiment lead to the down fall and where it happend... well on the messages. Right when the money problem it went down drain... but hey some of these messages still make me smile and im happy it happend =D I told myself i didnt learn anything from the relationship but i really did... probably one of the most i have ever learned from a relationship. Trust is important.. i did trust but some girls need you to fully trust them... like fully trust them and the thing is why not trust them fully if they mess up they mess up not the girl for you so let them do what they want... don't try to control there lifes... on the long run they will learn on there own only give advice to your loved ones and show that you care... I was nice to her a lot of the time... most of it actually but somtimes that doesnt always work. Glad it happend though, And to think of it 4 always revolved around my life and i always wanted to be with my 4th girlfriend forever yeah stupid idea... i guess i didnt want to be with her but i thought since its my lucky number it would happen... well ive always made it to where it would be 4th girl... but see now it is... the next one is the 4th girl. I don't know who she is but ive learned a lot in the past relationships... guess we will see what happends in the life of a camacho =D Girls in the life of a camacho... haha super crazy stories.. i am a lover a romantic lover than cant get enough romance haha, yeah yeah guys laugh at my sensitive side but hey thats me oh well deal with it =D I.N.G. first letter to every girl i had ha 2,8,5.... one year and 3 months of relationships do you think i can handle a super big one? who knows we will see... oh the messages are down here! =D -Isaac camacho i didnt edit them only the names... idk what else was on here but IDGAF.... this is my life this is my blog... live it feel it love it! Isaac Camacho 10/25/10 8:47 PM no lets not catch up =D 10/25/10 8:47 PM how about we start haha Girl 10/25/10 8:47 PM your really skyping me, facebooking me, and texting me?! Isaac Camacho 10/25/10 8:47 PM fuck yeah! Girl 10/25/10 8:47 PM sept you havent texted me back yet so it doesnt count...... 10/25/10 8:48 PM Call Started 10/25/10 8:55 PM Call Ended Isaac Camacho 10/25/10 10:59 PM can we talk on here? 10/25/10 11:10 PM nvm Girl 10/25/10 11:34 PM woooah sorry i just got these messages haha sowwyyy Isaac Camacho 10/26/10 1:23 AM Hey i'm probably going to bed soon 10/27/10 8:26 PM http://secondary.oslis.org/orig-steps/resources/cm/apacitations Girl 11/1/10 9:41 PM GREAT DAY GREAT DAY GREAT DAYEEEEEE Isaac Camacho 11/1/10 9:41 PM sarcastic 11/1/10 9:41 PM ? Girl 11/1/10 9:41 PM read the text i sent youuu 11/1/10 9:41 PM nope!! 11/1/10 9:42 PM +no mentored session + lots of cuddle time ahhhhhckkk 11/1/10 9:43 PM my brain might explode! Isaac Camacho 11/1/10 10:18 PM ha we did have cuddle time 11/1/10 10:18 PM ha 11/1/10 10:18 PM sorry Girl 11/1/10 10:19 PM for what? lol Isaac Camacho 11/1/10 10:27 PM ha 11/1/10 10:27 PM didnt message back on time 11/1/10 10:27 PM or sooner Girl 11/2/10 3:45 PM huh? Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 3:46 PM ? Girl 11/2/10 3:46 PM oh nvm haha i just got like 3 messages from you last night 11/2/10 3:46 PM but they just popped up on my screen Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 3:48 PM oh yeah u signed off Girl 11/2/10 3:50 PM sowwwyyyy 11/2/10 3:50 PM had to go to sweep Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 3:51 PM no problem, i just got out of class it wasnt that bad today 11/2/10 3:51 PM but i need to study for the midterm ha Girl 11/2/10 3:52 PM eeeee 11/2/10 3:52 PM have fun with that! 11/2/10 3:52 PM :[ <- the studying face Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 3:53 PM ha yea =C 11/2/10 3:53 PM sucky Girl 11/2/10 3:53 PM sowwyyyy Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 3:53 PM well im gonna head off ill text you =D Girl 11/2/10 3:53 PM mmmkeee :] Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 4:32 PM im in my dorm now Girl 11/2/10 4:33 PM mee to lol avoiding my spanish hw... Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 4:33 PM nice what do you have to do Girl 11/2/10 4:33 PM uhh different excersizes Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 4:34 PM oh hard? Girl11/2/10 4:34 PM kinda i think Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 4:42 PM you can do it =D Girl 11/2/10 4:42 PM ehhhh :] Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 4:45 PM im just taking a small break before big studing starts ha Girl 11/2/10 4:47 PM fun? haha Isaac Camacho 11/2/10 4:58 PM the break yea 11/2/10 4:58 PM im watching the video from last 5a championshipha Girl 11/5/10 11:11 PM i just got like 4 messages from last time you tried to IM me on here.. hahaha Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:13 PM yeah i know ha Girl 11/5/10 11:14 PM eep :]] Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:14 PM so shes gonna chop my balls off Girl 11/5/10 11:14 PM nawhhh 11/5/10 11:15 PM shes several hours away, and im one of the few people who she thinks can make good decisions :] Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:16 PM well thats good to know so i can run when she wants to chop my nutts off Girl 11/5/10 11:16 PM but i doubt shell need to. Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:17 PM close to icy =D 11/5/10 11:17 PM hahaha Girl 11/5/10 11:17 PM hahaha 11/5/10 11:17 PM goodness 11/5/10 11:17 PM noone knows what that means! Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:17 PM i knw 11/5/10 11:17 PM inside joke ha Girl 11/5/10 11:17 PM oh is it? Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:19 PM idk actually 11/5/10 11:19 PM its just funny Girl 11/5/10 11:19 PM i know i was jk :] Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:19 PM im gonna call you before i get off =D 11/5/10 11:19 PM like now 11/5/10 11:19 PM Call Started 11/5/10 11:20 PM Call Ended 11/5/10 11:20 PM Call Started 11/5/10 11:20 PM Call Ended 11/5/10 11:20 PM Call Started 11/5/10 11:20 PM Call Ended 11/5/10 11:20 PM Call Started 11/5/10 11:25 PM Call Ended Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:26 PM fuck in your room! 11/5/10 11:26 PM Call Started Girl 11/5/10 11:27 PM huuuh Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:27 PM Girl 11/5/10 11:27 PM 11/5/10 11:27 PM Call Ended Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:28 PM yah the video thing isnt working =C 11/5/10 11:28 PM Call Started Girl 11/5/10 11:28 PM not my faullllt Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:29 PM ok? 11/5/10 11:29 PM Call Ended Girl 11/5/10 11:29 PM pooooop just text me! 11/5/10 11:29 PM blahh miss your face hahaa Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:29 PM im gonna go shower ill keep texting you 11/5/10 11:30 PM its just im trying to energy save battery for my phone cuz i need to have some energy in caso de emergencia 11/5/10 11:30 PM =D 11/5/10 11:31 PM ok 11/5/10 11:31 PM i am gonna just text you 11/5/10 11:31 PM i really do miss you ha 11/5/10 11:31 PM its werid 11/5/10 11:31 PM oh well Girl 11/5/10 11:31 PM eee that could make sense 11/5/10 11:31 PM weird how? Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:31 PM idk 11/5/10 11:31 PM because i actually do a little 11/5/10 11:31 PM i thought i wouldent Girl 11/5/10 11:31 PM you sound surprised> Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:32 PM but i guess i did 11/5/10 11:32 PM a little Girl 11/5/10 11:32 PM uhhhh im not sure how to take that Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:32 PM good 11/5/10 11:32 PM i guess Girl 11/5/10 11:32 PM kay.. Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:32 PM it just sucks not spending some time with you i guess ha Girl 11/5/10 11:33 PM okay? Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:33 PM geez nvm haha 11/5/10 11:33 PM anyways... 11/5/10 11:33 PM im gonna get going Girl 11/5/10 11:33 PM i was just caught off gaurd how you said it thats all 11/5/10 11:33 PM okayyy have fun in the shower lol Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:33 PM i shouldent have said it in the first place ha 11/5/10 11:34 PM okay ill text you it was nice seeing you though a little Girl 11/5/10 11:34 PM just hurt my feelings a little i guess 11/5/10 11:34 PM yeah it was :] Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:34 PM how?? Girl 11/5/10 11:35 PM just like, i guess i was hoping you would miss me? it kinda felt like you were kinda irritated that you did.. i guess thats how, idk it i explained it well enough Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:35 PM Okay basically, i knew i wasent gonna be seeing you this weekend and i kinda pre thought o im not gonna see her or spend time with her yes i knew i was gonna miss you a little i knew that but i constantly find myself thinking about you and made me miss you more than before when i was just leaving Girl 11/5/10 11:36 PM that makes sense, sorry i jumped on you :/ 11/5/10 11:36 PM im sleepy and a bit blech Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:36 PM The fact that I miss you more is that which is on my mind 11/5/10 11:37 PM and then i do the stupid little things when we are together here Girl 11/5/10 11:37 PM welllll i miss you too, but your having fun in sunny LA :] sooo enjoy it 11/5/10 11:37 PM what do you mean stupid little things? Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:37 PM and find myself wondering where girl is, then i forget your not here Girl 11/5/10 11:38 PM blawchhh :[ Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:38 PM like the cat noisys Girl 11/5/10 11:38 PM :] 11/5/10 11:38 PM yeah but if you spent too much time with me youd get sick of me, and thatd be a bummer, im hoping to stick around for a while 11/5/10 11:39 PM if thats okay with youu 11/5/10 11:39 PM yeah but if you spent too much time with me youd get sick of me, and thatd be a bummer, im hoping to stick around for a while 11/5/10 11:41 PM blop sorry my skype is being weirddd Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:41 PM Hopefully you sick around for awhile more than awhile =D 11/5/10 11:41 PM stick* 11/5/10 11:41 PM =D 11/5/10 11:41 PM Rawwr! 11/5/10 11:41 PM im a dinosaur 11/5/10 11:42 PM suar* Girl 11/5/10 11:42 PM 11/5/10 11:42 PM that would be nicee Isaac Camacho 11/5/10 11:42 PM well im getting off text you babe 11/27/10 4:53 PM Call Started 11/27/10 4:53 PM Call Ended 11/27/10 4:54 PM Call Started 11/27/10 4:54 PM Call Ended Girl 12/14/10 10:28 PM miiiiiss you Isaac Camacho 12/14/10 10:28 PM woah you Girl 12/14/10 10:28 PM woah you too :] Isaac Camacho 12/14/10 10:29 PM call you in a bit babe =D Girl 12/14/10 10:29 PM okee 12/14/10 10:29 PM ill look forword to it :] Isaac Camacho 12/14/10 10:29 PM haha 12/14/10 10:29 PM i need to look good if its gonna be a date =D Girl 12/14/10 10:30 PM welll i look like total poop. so please dont look so good Isaac Camacho 12/14/10 10:51 PM sorry it took forever im not ready yet Girl 12/14/10 10:52 PM its okay baby 12/14/10 10:52 PM please dont get ready though!! Isaac Camacho 12/14/10 10:52 PM right after i got up i went to go scare alejandro and woody closed my locked door so we had to call on call i didnt have my cell phone so i had to find somebody on the floor with a cell ha 12/14/10 10:52 PM now im gonna get a lil ready Girl 12/14/10 10:53 PM awhh baby im sowwy! Isaac Camacho 12/14/10 10:53 PM no problem 12/14/10 10:53 PM haha 12/14/10 10:59 PM Call Started 12/14/10 11:23 PM Call Ended Isaac Camacho 12/14/10 11:23 PM gonna call in a bit sorry ha Girl 12/14/10 11:24 PM no worries baby :]] 12/14/10 11:28 PM Call Started Isaac Camacho 12/14/10 11:31 PM 2435 NW 13th ST. Corvallis Oregon 97330 12/14/10 11:38 PM Call Ended Isaac Camacho 12/16/10 2:05 AM Blah! 12/16/10 2:05 AM can you be available please =D 12/16/10 2:31 AM babe? Girl 12/16/10 1:59 PM boobie i wish you are onlineee cuz i wish to skyype you :] Isaac Camacho 12/16/10 2:52 PM hey 12/16/10 2:52 PM ha 12/16/10 2:52 PM i wanna skype now Girl 12/16/10 2:52 PM hi hi :]] 12/16/10 2:52 PM Call Started Girl 12/16/10 2:52 PM okeeedokalee 12/16/10 3:03 PM Call Ended 12/16/10 3:03 PM Call Started 12/16/10 3:06 PM Call Ended 12/16/10 3:07 PM Call Started 12/16/10 3:50 PM Call Ended Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:18 PM Hey how are you doing? Girl 4/25/11 10:19 PM im alright ishh i guess 4/25/11 10:19 PM how are you? Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:19 PM Thats good I guess. Im fine. Just wanted to see how you were doing, making sure your okay thats all Girl 4/25/11 10:20 PM yeah, ive just been hanging out with madeline and decompressing Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:20 PM .. Girl 4/25/11 10:20 PM ? Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:20 PM Oh I forgot to put a period at the end of my sentence 4/25/11 10:20 PM . 4/25/11 10:20 PM I need to start working on simple things like that. Girl 4/25/11 10:20 PM ohh ok lol Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:21 PM Thats good to know, watch "Titanic" yet? Girl 4/25/11 10:21 PM no, she was on the phone with her friend from home and by the time she got off it was too latee Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:22 PM You aren't going to watch it anymore? Girl 4/25/11 10:23 PM no, not tonight, prolly tomorrow night Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:23 PM Thats good at least. 4/25/11 10:23 PM Its a Great movie =D Girl 4/25/11 10:24 PM yeahhhh always good for a cry lol Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:25 PM I was going to let you have your own time till I went to bed or you texted me, But I could not stop thinking of you and all. I decided to message you though just to see how you were putting out. Girl 4/25/11 10:25 PM im sorry, meh im alright i guess 4/25/11 10:26 PM thank you for checking in though Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:26 PM No worries, I only make things worse right now so I needed to stay away. Im guessing thats why you never texted me back. I kinda just figured you needed space. Girl 4/25/11 10:26 PM i did text you back? 4/25/11 10:27 PM but yeah i do need some space right now Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:27 PM "I will, Thank you " was the last text, because you were going to work out. Girl 4/25/11 10:27 PM yeah and i didnt get a reply Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:28 PM I thought you would text me when you were done. =/ Girl 4/25/11 10:28 PM oh, sorry Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:28 PM No worries though. Girl 4/25/11 10:28 PM i got in the shower and went to dinner Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:28 PM I didn't want to text you during your workout. 4/25/11 10:28 PM Again, I felt each time we were close things got worse. 4/25/11 10:29 PM I didn't feel like it was right to text back for a random reason. Until now which was to check how my Booboo was doing. 4/25/11 10:29 PM Im glad your doing a bit better though. Girl 4/25/11 10:29 PM well sorry i didn't text you.. 4/25/11 10:29 PM yeah i am glad too Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:30 PM Don't worry about it, as long as it helped you. Space is good under stress. Girl 4/25/11 10:30 PM yeah thats the truth Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:30 PM For some people at least. 4/25/11 10:30 PM Some need otheres to be there for them under it. Girl 4/25/11 10:31 PM well idk, sorry, i just don't know if i'm one of those people Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:31 PM Thank Sean for me tomorow, for helping you out. He is a really good guy. 4/25/11 10:31 PM Totally understandable 4/25/11 10:31 PM Im half half 4/25/11 10:31 PM Sometimes I don't want nobody to bother me Girl 4/25/11 10:32 PM yeah i know he is, i guess i will if you want me to. Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:32 PM Sometimes I need others to help me through my struggle. Girl 4/25/11 10:32 PM idk id be fine without him, its just nice cuz hes positive in a way thats not over the top or fake Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:32 PM Yes I do, He is helping you out. Takes stress away. 4/25/11 10:32 PM Makes you feel better too GGirl 4/25/11 10:32 PM yeahh Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:33 PM as long as there is somebody that can do that, I'll be happy that your getting help Girl 4/25/11 10:33 PM yeah, its cool Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:33 PM . 4/25/11 10:34 PM Sometimes I wish I could Help... Girl 4/25/11 10:34 PM im sorry Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:34 PM Other than take you out for dinner, help you on transportation. Buying books. Girl 4/25/11 10:35 PM ive tried thanking you for that... Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:35 PM I know Girl 4/25/11 10:35 PM an im getting money on manday so ill pay you back for gas then Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:35 PM Im glad I could help you in some way too. 4/25/11 10:35 PM Don't worry about it, use it for this weekend. 4/25/11 10:36 PM Jungle Juice isn't cheap. Girl 4/25/11 10:36 PM im getting that stuff with dining dollars, ill pay you back isaac 4/25/11 10:36 PM obviously it bugs you that i haven't so i will, and even if it didn't id still pay you back Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:36 PM I just want you to live your life thats all. 4/25/11 10:37 PM It bugs me that I can't Help, and when I try it never works. 4/25/11 10:37 PM You dont accept it. 4/25/11 10:37 PM But thats fine. 4/25/11 10:37 PM Ill get what I can Girl 4/25/11 10:37 PM well sorry.. Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:38 PM Im sorry for Speaking.. Girl 4/25/11 10:38 PM joking? Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:39 PM Im sorry for staying 4/25/11 10:39 PM and im sorry for going Girl 4/25/11 10:39 PM that doesnt make any sense Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:39 PM Im sorry you won and I lost 4/25/11 10:39 PM Sorry that so much was spent Girl 4/25/11 10:40 PM didn't know we were having a contest Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:40 PM Medaphorically speaking Girl 4/25/11 10:40 PM i dont understand Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:40 PM sorry i cant speak very coherently. 4/25/11 10:40 PM sorry for hurting you Girl 4/25/11 10:41 PM nothing to apologize for, i jusst don't get it 4/25/11 10:41 PM you didnt hurt me Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:41 PM Im sorry i upset you Girl 4/25/11 10:41 PM you didnt upset me 4/25/11 10:41 PM idk why your apologising so much Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:42 PM Im not sorry for being nice and kind to you. 4/25/11 10:43 PM I know you will pay me back someday... maybe tomorow or in a couple years... but i know you will. 4/25/11 10:43 PM And thats all that matters 4/25/11 10:44 PM Lo ago todo para ti. 4/25/11 10:44 PM Porque te amo 4/25/11 10:44 PM Girl 4/25/11 10:44 PM you are nice isaac, i'm not though, i can't change that though Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:45 PM Nice to me? Girl 4/25/11 10:45 PM nice at all Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:45 PM so your not nice to me? Girl 4/25/11 10:45 PM well obviously not if your upset Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:45 PM ha 4/25/11 10:45 PM Im not upset Girl 4/25/11 10:46 PM kay well your being all cryptic and weird Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:46 PM If i knew what cryptical was 4/25/11 10:46 PM i know what weird is though Girl 4/25/11 10:46 PM like you aren't making a whole lot of sense Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:46 PM Oh the sorry part? 4/25/11 10:46 PM that was quotes 4/25/11 10:46 PM I was reading Girl 4/25/11 10:46 PM well idk sorry i didnt know that Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:47 PM Ha i was using big words like coherently and i dont know what that means ha 4/25/11 10:47 PM I just want you to be happy Girl 4/25/11 10:47 PM clearly, thats what it means 4/25/11 10:47 PM okay, thank you Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:47 PM with or without me Girl 4/25/11 10:47 PM well i want you to be happy too Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:48 PM i just want you to be happy Girl 4/25/11 10:48 PM okay? Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:48 PM Are you happy with me? Girl 4/25/11 10:49 PM uhh yeah Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:49 PM Im happy with you too, more than happy. 4/25/11 10:49 PM those 4 hours felt like days. Girl 4/25/11 10:49 PM sorry? Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:50 PM Dont be sorry for something you dont know 4/25/11 10:50 PM about Girl 4/25/11 10:50 PM okay? Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:50 PM I dont get the whole question mark at the end of things 4/25/11 10:50 PM wanna fill me in? Girl 4/25/11 10:50 PM well i just dont get what your saying half the time thats all, and i'm not sure how you want me to respond Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:51 PM There is never a day where I want you to respond in such a way. 4/25/11 10:51 PM The only time I would want a girl to respond 4/25/11 10:51 PM ... Girl 4/25/11 10:51 PM that doesnt make sense either 4/25/11 10:51 PM to me Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:51 PM in the way i want her too 4/25/11 10:52 PM When I ask my Fiance to marry me, I want her to respond yes Girl 4/25/11 10:52 PM i'm sure she will Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:52 PM thats the only thing i would want in life for a person to respond to me 4/25/11 10:52 PM I dont care how you respond to me Girl 4/25/11 10:52 PM okay. Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:52 PM k? Girl 4/25/11 10:52 PM kay Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:52 PM ? Girl 4/25/11 10:53 PM why the question marks? i said okay Isaac Camacho 4/25/11 10:53 PM well you were doing them Girl4/25/11 10:53 PM okauu 4/25/11 10:53 PM *okayy

Think Abundance

If you focus on the scarcity that surrounds you, in the misfortunes that are constantly transpiring...then you will experience more of it. Your thoughts give birth to your physical reality. Think about the abundance you want and abundance will be born. Think about scarcity you hate and scarcity will be nourished and grown. Everything you have today was created by your past thoughts. Everything you will have tomorrow is being created by your present thoughts. "It requires strength to think abundance while surrounded by scarcity, but isn't abundance worth it." ~Andres Lara -Isaac Camacho

Well lets see this time I am going by myself =C no jacki no Skeetz =/ but Im not driving I was going to take my motorcycle but all the sexy ladies said it was to dangerous haha jk anyways. I took the train i worked my ass off getting money for these tickets one way train ticket to reno was $131 duration was 23 hrs... yeah but see the thing is that it actually felt like less than how long it took to drive maybe its the fact that i slept a shit ton. The train almost left me on board at sacramento i would have woken up in LA haha then i would have been stranded haha. well i woke up and they said the train was departing soon so i got all my shit and left without shoes haha. well it happend that i left my wallet in teh front pouch with my I.D. and money debit card... bus ticket to reno... yeah basically my life. So.... i went up to baggage claims and some dick named kevin said sorry man your mexican (he really didnt say mexican) you know better luck next time... so i was like fuck you and went to talk to security and they said to talk to kevin and i was like no fuck kevin so he sent me to an agent and this beautiful girl helped me gave me a number to called they tracked down my wallet found it and send it back on the next train not only did i get my wallet with all my money that was not touched i also got my pack of gum and my a seastar deadliest catch notebook my brother got me in AK. I slept in the station and am currently on the way to reno i think im pretty close im seeing reno signs... well That one girl went to mexico and i am writing her everyday just to keep in touch she got to swim with dolphins... lucky girl... or am i a lucky guy...? the world will never know haha. well this is just the start of reno trip #2 -Isaac Camacho Life as a Camacho

The most Blessed Day!

Breathe as though it was your last breath, embrace as though it was your last hug, stand by those you love as though you might never stand again.

Dance as though it was your last dance, enjoy your significant others as though you might never see them another time, speak as though what you say will be your last words.

Treat today as though it was the most blessed day you ever had. In retrospect, who knows, it might very well be.

"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."
~John Lennon

Pen Pal

so... I'm a gates scholar... If you all didn't know that. Anyway thats not what i'm trying to get at. They sent all the West cost scholars to a conference in LA. Well, lets just say i'm a romantic type of guy, and girls are amazing. Well, there happened to be this one girl That just stood out to me, she was... well very attractive but not like over attractive where its just bad but she was cute... pretty... and she wore converse haha. Well, 3 days at this conference I could not budge anything... not even a single word. See for those who don't know i am a super shy guy but Sometimes I have to fore myself to do things. If I don't than nothing will get accomplished. Out of no where she was in my group on the last night and we talked. I kept it group related, we wrote a poem and I sang it as a rap... she thought I was pretty good the fact that I pulled it right out of my ass. That night was the dance... ha yeah you all know it... I didn't ask her to dance... I should have... to show off my dance skills haha she probably would have liked that. I didn't dance with any girl that night, its just so hard to ask a girl to dance idk what... i've talked in front of house reps and the senate but i cant ask a girl to dance... i know its super crap. Well I totally lost her and that night in bed I was thinking a lot about her like what if I don't see her and shit like that. I thought she was just gonna be that one girl that I never got her name and It would be stuck with me forever. Next day as everybody is departing, i really felt everybody left... so i went to talk to my buddy Ivan that came on the same flight with me... "hey when do we leave?" i asked as he started talking i looked around in the group he was sitting at and there she was... ivans voice sorta just went in and out of my ear... Sorry Ivan... well Obviously popped in the conversation some how we got to talking about Pen Pals and stuff like that. I thought she was kidding so I didn't even bother. until like 2 seconds before she left i ran up and asked "were you being serious?" yeah here is my #.... I did it ha No fucking way but i did it ha... I really didnt think anything of it just as a friend thing and an accoplishment i guess. Well I wrote this song for her and i know these are just the lyrics but its better than nothing right.
hope you like it.
i dont have a mic to record it but i will... i already promised.


(First Verse)
I only met you just a while ago
Sudden death grip that I wont see you anymore
But I seemed to get an address that’s where you resign
So I’m gonna write to you pen pal every word every line
You say my name in excitement it feels so great
Wanna write a.s.a.p. Don’t want this letter to be late
Hopefully you will read it and it makes your day
Thinking ahead by the page to what ill for say
I know your curious absorbing it through your writing
It’s a great story to wait for because it’s so exiting
Life is okay your stressed just outta your mind
You took a calc mid term passed with a 79
You shouldn’t worry, its a passing grade so what’s the fuss
Professor gave a curve that bumped it up to a B+
Friends joined at the hip sticking together like glue
Same thing here, friends forever amongst me, there’s only two

(Second Verse)

Got things to say but I haven’t received a single letter
I write to you is cuz it makes me feel so much better
I write when I am down or even when I am hurt
Writing what has happened just lifts me off this dirt
Guess I’m happy to have somebody to write too
One letter back smile on my face admit that’s true
It doesn’t matter what I write this is just my mind
Nobody listens I keep it to myself all the time
These are my problems and my story that I’m sharing
Keeps me on the right path but people just keep on glaring
But that doesn’t stop me for my future is indeed
This is my goal my mission this is what I shall bleed
For instance the blood is life, which is part of me
The thing that got me so far was love for my family
Putting my life on the paper with ink or lead
Signed dear Pen Pal sincerely wrote Isaac he said

Hola.....

Esperaba hablar mas contigo durante el campamento... :C Pero te entiendo. a veces las cosas no son como queremos. Aveces me sineto sola, pero esa es otra historia.

Hoy durante el lonche estaba pensando en como nos conocimos, como simpre me haces reir y eso me encanta que puedes cambiar como me siento en un instante. Te extrano.

Con la persona que me saco de mi Black Hole.

<3


-Isaac Camacho

I Hate...

You know what I hate? What I hate the most, When somebody works hard to and then sombody just shuts you down. I don't hate a lot of things, You know Im more of a love love person. The word jerk... Or douche bag... When that is said to me... I hate that shit. I don't deserve that, why? Because I am not a jerk and I am not a douche bag. I fucking do so much things for people, and those people out there that know who I really am know that I am not a jerk. Even if its said as a joke.
See I had friend... Had a Friend. A really good one too. I haven't seen her in ever. A year exactly. A whole fucking year... and yeah I miss her. She has her "own" life. All I see is her pictures. She threw away her college, her friends and family for a guy that does not treat her right. He is out having fun while she is at home with his baby. She is pregnant all I see is her stomach growing. I told her whenever she needed me before she told me she didn't want me in her life, that i would be there... even if she kept her attitude going. At the same time Im glad she is pregnant and Im glad she dosn't have the best thing in the world going for her but see thats how we learn things.... I didn't have it going for me all the time. We all learn...we all move forward.

"There's not such a thing as standing still, for the world is always moving; if you're standing still, you are being left behind." ~Andres Lara

-Isaac Fucking Camacho

hurtful love

She is in love, sweet love comes over them. But it hurts pain, cuts punches. She still lives on trying to be happy trying to see the good things. Doing what she can to try to make things better. See it wasn't always like this... pain... and brusies, see there was a time where it was love real true love. Every word every touch... just love... but now it has changed every little word tunes into an argument. Sometimes pain is something people need, rather than helping her self she does need somebody else to do it. He stricks her again I fucking swear! She won't let me do it she wants to deal with it. She knows she could count the things that are good about him easier than counting the bad about him. She insists its love. It broke not because of her but because of a stronger force more than her parents... seprate ways diffrent directions. It still stics because deep down inside that shit is still there... so he promise he has changed but he went his route and changed it... now he is hitting another girl but the kid is there to thing about it. Acting like friends... but stuff that has happend is still in the back of the head once awhile it stings... she tries diffrent boys diffrnt guys but its not the same... who am I she asks? Why me, why do things have to be like this. What she does for him still in hopes of one day things will change and she could be with him once again... who is there to council? Some crazy shit some people get married in love... the love dies off after a few years but kids are there kids are more important because you may not have love for the mother but kids are more important. Be careful... one day you will settle but don't stop now keep on moving forward. -isaac camacho

My Trip So Far

So I came with my friends from portland state university to go to Reno Nevada. I am here to visit my roomate from PSU. It was a good drive In my moms subaru outback =D well we got here and first thing we did was eat In n Out =D I got a 4x4 which is on the secret menu =D one the 31st we checked into the resort that I got for 4 Nights =D Through my Friend his 19th birthday and my Other friend her 20th two nights in a row so you can see how that worked out ha. I love the weather it like 90 degrees everyday =D I am so tan! We went and walked downtown Reno. Oh and we went to this place called painted rock and i jumped off 20ft cliff and i did a flip of the 10ft one which is smaller. I dove off the big one too =D Lately i've been doing stupid things because its like you got to live life... yes i think about it but sometimes you have to say "fuck it" and go for it. In my last blog i put if your goal is to easy and it does not scare you then you are living your life at ease. if you want to go somewhere in life you got to set high goals. Well anyway we went to Lake Tahoe and we went rock jumping, i went shallow diving and again we jumped of rocks there was some girls there so i was showing off ha ha. I went to the tallest rock which was super high idk this might be rock but 30ft? well i did a head stand on it while everybody watched =D I love adrenaline I got a $115 parking ticket for parking in a place that had no signs whatsoever but who cares ill just pay it later. I have spent half my money already I think I only have like $100 left. I got the master room in the Resort it was great =D.... Plus im getting super dark.... well im leaving to san fran tonight and get to spend the whole day up there on friday... @MsRebeccaBlack Follow on twitter.... can follow me on twitter @IcyDaOffical The reason why im posting this is because Rebecca Black is following me on Twitter like the Official rebecca black =D Her new song is tight and the TGIF music video that she is in...

well cya!

-Isaac Camacho

" To see click...Reno Resort Worldmark"

Begin a great undertaking

Today can be the beginning, the beginning of a brand new life, the beginning of a grandiose undertaking, the beginning of something great.

Today can also be the continuation of something dull, the continuation of misery, sadness, despair, loneliness, unhappiness; the continuation of something not so great.
What today will be, it'll be up to you. You can put a stop...to the continuation of whatever has been going on...the minute you chose to begin a great undertaking.

"Today can be the beginning of a new, exciting life or the continuation of an old, dull one. You choose." ~Andres Lara

-Isaac Camacho

Gates essay #3

Most of my family was born in México, my father and mother came over here to the United States for the same reason most immigrants do, in search of the American dream. I am the only child, out of my four siblings, that has had the privilege to be born a citizen of the United States. My mother never had the opportunity to attend high school because in México, she would have to stay at home to take care of her younger siblings and help her mother with the daily chores. My father on the other hand was in the Mexican Air Force, as a result of that; he had the opportunity to receive a college education. Both my parents not only had to leave their families behind in Mexico when they left, but also their lives. They knew however, that we deserved a better future. They are exceptional and hard working people, and as cliché as it sounds, they are truly my heroes. I completely and utterly admire them. I feel so privileged to be born in the United States. I have so many opportunities to accomplish my goals that my parents never had. They gave me an advantage towards a better and successful future. The first place I can remember we lived in was a two-bedroom apartment. It was beyond cramped, considering there were six people living there. My dad had just begun to work as a fisherman in Alaska and gain some profit. My mother would clean houses all day long. From the very beginning they demonstrated to us that hard work pays off.
It was during elementary school when I invited two boys to my house to play, there were my friends from school. Their mothers, however no mom never picked them up, then my mother became worried. They told us that from time to time their mother would leave them home for days, with out supervision or food. It soon became too much for my mother to bear. She finally took this to the police and the court declared that their mother no longer could support these children. My parents, after a long and tedious process, ended up with full adoption of two boys. Not only was this a new experience for me, but for my entire family. During the time of the adoption my parent were not citizens or residents to this country yet, so it made the process more difficult. With the right lawyer and determination, they ended up getting their residency. With the adoptions the family was grew no to eight, making it harder for my parents to support the family. This meant longer hours working and less time with the family. They never gave up though; they knew that the end result was worth it. Now with all problems fixed I was able to start paying them back for what they did for me. I wanted to be the best person I could be by accomplishing my studies and graduating from high school with outstanding community service. I know my mother will be happy to see her son accomplish something she could never do and seeing her eyes I know I made her a proud to have a son that will succeed at anything he tries. I guess being a Hispanic itself was a struggle I had to overcome. I wont be stopping there either, but going to college and acquiring an education that would lead me to career my parents never dreamed of. I know that never in my whole life will I be able to repay what my parents that suffered to give me the life I deserve, but I promise to do whatever is in my power to make them proud.

Kawasaki Ninja 250R

(There will be some Motorcycle Adversitments, Feel free to look around =D)
So, today I put on 140 miles on my bike and only spent $5 in gas.... AMAZING!!! I rode to Salem to Hang out with friends, OMG the bike is amazing. I got to hang out with this really wonderful girl =D Maybe in the future ill be blogging about her... who knows It all depends on whats in store for my life... The life of a Camacho =D She's great... So far a couple friends approve, and I know my mom would Love her already... Even though She won't get to meet her until a lot of months... Got to take it slow. Its like breaking in a new engine... Last relationship I took way to fast... Broke the engine quick... I want my engine to last long... so be easy in the break in... don't redline it, Take a breather and take it easy. Well I have a roommate Kyle Zadina... He is like man you get all the girls Isaac... But im like nah I don't Im ugly. I may not be the best looking man in the world kyle... But they always come back for more! =D Anyways This girl so far is a keeper... She dosn't know jack squat I think. Yeah I think she is outta my leauge but... I thought my Ex was outta my leauge and look at me now... We may have not lasted forever but She was my girlfriend at some point right? ;D anyways If I win her heart... good deal.... If I don't... Well ive had worse, Been to hell and back million of times but... who's counting =D I admit... Didn't learn a lot from my past relationships. Out of the 3 that I had I learned... 1. Love no matter what, Don't hate... Just accept the fact. 2. Trust Everything, If she messes up shes not for you... Let her do what she wants. 3.Don't Hold Grudges. Three relationships 3 things learned... Now time for the 4th Girlfriend. Four leaf Clover, 4 is my lucky number... 4H... April is the 4th month of the year... Things are just weird. Well I'm going to try to win her ha... wish Me luck guys.
Mom... Abla espanol =D

250R is my new baby for now =D

-Isaac Camacho
"Forgive quick, Love when you can... Life is short"

P.S.

Writing new song... Hecka Sick... I mean hella Ballass =D

P.S.S

I might be giving up Drinking, Just a posibility until i'm 21

gates essay #2

Seventh grade summer I was introduced to the 4H program. During the first two years at the program, I participated as a camper. My friend were the ones whom convinced me into joining, but I am so thankful they did. When I began going to the camp, I was amazed how comfortable I felt and this was due to the counselors. They did not appear to me as authority, but more like a friends that I admire. After that year I aspired to one year become a counselor as inspiring as them. After two life changing years participating in the program, it was finally my turn to become a counselor. The 4H program was and still is incredible, it motivated me to become a better person, the person I am today. Freshman year of high school was when I began my first year as a 4H Camp Counselor. I was very devoted, attending all three weekend meetings throughout the year so I may get feedback, advice, extra training, and also create a relationship with the fellow camp counselors that I would be working with throughout the year. I also lent a hand with the middle school and elementary camps which was great because I truly got the best of both worlds. In 2008, I received an award presented to me for five years of loyalty to the 4H Latino Summer Camps. I did not stop then however, I went ahead and participated in the camp for two more years, this will be my last year as a counselor. This is not my last year at the camp though, I am planning on becoming a staff member helping counselors learn how to handle the youth. I honestly believe that helping others realize the better in themselves and show them that college is for everyone and anyone is one of my callings. I not only gave them the confidence to believe in themselves, but also present to them that there are options money wise to help them pay for getting the best education possible. I became a leader in 4H by learning for my elders and showing pride in 4H. This program has helped me improve my lifestyle and to live my dream, by having the opportunity to help others that are in need. I want youth to understand that no matter what your background is, anything is possible; I am a living proof of that.

-Isaac Camacho

Gates Essay #1

These are some of the essays I had to do for my Gates scholarship, Thought I'd put them on my blog. Ill post one everyday... there is like 4 or 5 I think.

The most challenging subject for me is by far mathematics, but surprisingly, I enjoy taking part in the class. If it was not for these challenging math courses, I would have not had the chance to surpass my comfort zone and push myself into becoming the student I am today. As a result of this, not only has my knowledge of mathematics increased, but my work ethic skills have improved greatly as well. When freshman year began I decided to chose a different path in life. I no longer wanted to follow the path I was on, I wanted to do better for my family and ultimately myself. This intended that I and only I, had to strive for the best in myself by actually paying attention as the teacher lectured and truly comprehending what they meant. This was a new concept for me, but I was determined to move on forward no matter how many times I felt like accepting defeat. I believe that my difficulties in understanding math was not a result of me not being able to understand what the teacher was discussing in class, but instead because I could not stay in the task at hand. This was attributed to the fact that my social life, at the time, was more important than my education. I knew that I deserved a prosperous future and I was determined to acquire it. That is why once I arrived into high school, my grades were put above everything else. A good education truly is the first step into a successful future. Although I still have difficulties in my mathematic courses, I have this internal drive that does not allow me to give up, but instead push me to my limits and beyond, proving that in the future, I will become the successful man I am destined to be.

-Isaac Camacho

What to do...

Okay Isaac I understand some things, but I can't fully grasp it. You have to take into account everything, stay who you are. It will come... Eventually. Yeah it was weird. You have to keep on with your respect, because thats who you are. Keep it positive... keep your engine going. You have fallen multiple times, and still you stand. You have been to hell and back, and still you stand. You have been shoved into the Dirt, told you wouldn't make it, beat up mentally... You are still here and you Still stand. Your Heart has been ripped apart and healed, But you still stand. You have been shoved in your grave... Almost buried alive, but you took the weight and climbed out... Exhausted, dead, pain, tears.... Fuck why me? Straighten that upper lip, Get up, stand tall for you are a CAMACHO, Keep your chin up... Keep on3 forward. No matter what the pain, how hard the obstacles... Im going to make your Proud mom... Thats a promise That I will keep. You are my fuel, you are the reason why I Stand... the reason why I keep walking Forward <3

-Isaac Camacho

Camps

WRote this fast so sorry for misspelled words
So the last 2 weeks I have been voulenteering at a summer camp for 4-H.
I am a counsler for youth development in 4-H. See though the thing is my whole situation was fucked up, you know with the break up and stuff and I really have not recovord fully... These camps helped me so much. Surrounded by so much people soupporting you at every step you take. People that love you for who you are. I am strong because of these camps, they make me who I want to be. Education is the most important thing in life, without it you suck haha. Im just saying the future of the country is in our youth and without the right development, there will be no future. I met amazing people =D Long term friendships are made at 4-H... and that is real friends. Not friends that lure you in to commit bad things. Lets see, life as a camacho... Im gaining weight. Realation-ship status single, Not going to talk to my Ex now, if she wanted to she should have done it already. She has her life and when she broke up with me she said... Isaac you deserve better than me, I didn't start thinking about that until last couple weeks. I stopped having dreams about her, I even pretty much stopped checking her everyday moves and status shit. I used too... Now not really. I mean yes she's amazing, but she was right... I need a girl that suits me. Im a nice guy a great person, already have my life planned out, religious views on life. We are different her and I. I cant' say the pathway it will take, I might be leaving her but never her family because they never left me and still to this day they haven't... kind family... really at the time was almost my second family I liked to say. I want to enjoy my single life =D and I have lately... Camps were awesome and I danced and Talked with a lot of people =D I've had amazing days. I just wish my ex good luck, with everything... I still pray for her, I pray for a lot of people. Praying isn't to hate Im not saying oh this and that she's bad... no because she's great, but I want her to reach her greatest goals and meet her dream guy... I mean Ill be a tough act to follow ;D yeah right I suck haha jk Im alright ha... Laughing is good =D
You never know maybe Another girl will come soon ;D
My ex kinda discribed my future girlfriend when she broke up with me.
she said, She will be a hispanic speaker so your mom will love her to death, she will be Beautiful, have a future, dance.
Maybe I should listen to her and not be stuobbern and find one like that ;D

Adios amigos
Reno Comes soon, oh yeah and the mind at isaac too,


-Isaac camacho

Just a Five Letter Word

Shawn Chrystopher
I never said bitch till my heart was broken,
Now it seem like bitch the only word ever spoken

They teach you how to love, but never the out come
So when I see love. I'm trying to out run
And ima do this cart lewis on this life track
I gave her everything, I want my life back
And that ring too, oh what I mean boo
I mean my life is fucking better since I seen you
All up in my life like r3 d2
Who knew with out that make up you were see through
We grew apart like lines in a broadway play
And I aint mean to pick apart that day
When you say us is too much too try to discuss
And I aint even did shit, wasn't even no mistrust
You was fuckin tripin and couldnt handle life
So then you cut me off, and bitch that wasn't right
Remember that night, your whole family put you down
And I treat you like a queen, even handed you a crown
But then you slipped off like nightgowns do at ron day vus
They say you never play your part, you loose
But I play my part like denzel trainin day was my fuckin oscar
But you the actress bitch, yeah a fuckin imposter
But now I got a roster, and you aint even startin
I got a new bitch, bitch, and you aint even parkin
Oh I'm sorry bitch, did I offend you,
Great bitch cause I ment too

I never said bitch till my heart was broken,
Now it seem like it's the only word ever spoken
I never said bitch till my heart was broken,
Now it seem like bitch the only word ever spoken

Live in the same city, drive the same streets
But when I ask for some time, you say you can't meet
You say you gotta work, and you got shit to do
But all that really means is I don't mean shit to you
So what's the point of me standing here on my own two
And when I need to talk too, I tell her phone you
Naw that aint the life, at least not for me
You got me writing don't my shit like I was socrates
And last night I met a girl that was in the club
She told me by the way I look, she knew I need love
Gave me a hug, and it felt so good
And she treated me in all the ways I wish you sorta would
I wish you sorta could, but you don't have the time
How we gonna be in love, when I was next in line
I brought that girl home, I hope you understand
She made me feel like a man

I never said bitch till my heart was broken,
Now it feel like bitch the only word ever spoken
I never said bitch till my heart was broken,
Now it feel like bitch the only word ever spoken

(shawn Chrystopher)

Its always me who is getting hurt, because I cant do the hurting... I don't like seeing others in pain. If its me who has to carry that pain for them... Im willing to do that. Nobody should feel like that. In life you move on, Ill tell you I have never found love and be mad at me hate me whatever but Love Is Forever. I thought I was in love, but I guess I lied to myself... but when you lie constantly it turns true.
I can't go back now, but I don't really care... I Was a fucking good boyfriend and thats all that matter... Don't downgrade cuz thats stupid but try to get better. Who do you think you are really? think about it ha, I laugh because its true.
anyways off to camp got shit to do =D
Peace love!
-Isaac Camacho

Dream

Last night I had a dream... that I was in a house. You were there... but my heart didn't. My heart did not sting. This dream was different, that is because I felt different. I did not feel that pain. There was somebody else, Sitting there looking at me... a soft smile given... a smile returned. Then I knew the chase has begun. I woke up... Felt different.
The things dreams tells us.
-Isaac Camacho

Play Full Game...

Wherever you stand right now in life, remember that..it's only half time. You still have the second half to go.

So if you've been winning, keep your guards up, don't let it get to your head because you can still be outplayed by life. If you've been losing, you are probably being underestimated, take advantage of it.

You cannot call yourself a winner till the end of the game, nor can you call yourself a loser while the game is still on. Play a full game.

Don't give up at half time. Concentrate on winning the second half." ~Coach Paul Bryant

THE CUBAN GUY

-Isaac Camacho

Shes From Mexico

I like to do a lot of community service in the summer, Well I love doing it to help the community, I feel good when I do something for others... I like to help thats all. Sometimes it pays off though, especially when you get to know new people. I Love making new friends and yes I could be she sometimes but once I get to know you well Im fine. One day I go in the office and there she is a random girl... Don't know who she is. I soon Rememberd that every year students usually come from mexico for the camps. We talked that day in the office and we got to know each other well. I invited to her to the movies, BTW Transformers 3 Was amazing! She came but could not figure out what they were saying. Next day we went on a walk downtown, I got to show her around and I got to practice spanish while she got to practice english. This girl is pretty awesome, i mean i'm not looking for a Girlfriend or anything and she has a Boyfriend anyways. I just want a friend and its fun to be around somebody where you could have fun and just have a good time. She loves to dance, I promised her a dance to Some spanish music, which she keeps wanting me to dance haha. Watch when we go to the dance im going to bust out all the moves ha and she is going to be surprised because THIS BOY COULD DANCE! She wanted reggeton but I told her salsa and cumbias, banda, are only aloud at the came... Reggeton can... Um... Get a little outta hand with me haha.
Well today was an amazing 4th of july... Family And Friends Forever.
-Isaac Camacho
Sorry for mis spelling i am typing fast ha

Again, stuck in my head.

So look,

Life is filled of choices and decisions. Every choice you make is a path... Life is a path a road that you are going along on. So Its almost like a highway with a lot of exits. Each exit is its own subject. One exit could be a girl another exit could be another girl. One exit could be College. Another Dance. ect. Anything you could think of, being a main subject is an exit. Okay Lets say i take the exit of dance, That exit leads to many other roads so what dance? hip hop is one road and electro is another road. Okay? what about electro lets just say i take that path... There is competitions vertigight different styles... It just leads on to so much more My mind goes to the end... puts me with all the possibilities that can happen... so I know what could happen what to expect.
For a girl, you see her and think of everything... she is her own exit... that exit leads to many diffrent roads... it could just lead to friends, relationship, hooking up etc. anything that is possible with the girl. I think of it all to the end, But some roads end and you have to cancel them out... with questions... like saying there is no way that would happen... like uncommon ways... like me dying tomorrow or something that isnt likely to happen so i wont go on that road for to long.
Ive never really been able to explain how it all comes together but my mind procesess everything to the end.
Lets say im walking down the street... a guy is walking in opposite direction. that whole time its going to take about 30 seconds for him to pass me. In those 30 seconds my mind is canceling out diffrent possiblities. First thing he could walk past me not look, second i want to be safe i don't want him to hurt me. 3rd what is he carrying, who is he what does he look like what shoes what pants. All goes to my head... What could he do to me, PUll a knife pull a gun try to mug me... so when he passes me i know what his foots steps sound like... any sudden moves and i turn quick. i think of where i will strike and what i would do, I am always one step ahead of the opponent. e

Its crazy but ive done it my whole life and its 18 years and ive gotten really good at it. good at finding things and i use it for my advantage... Its really mind blowing i guess. When i was in cadet academy we were taught something like that and i picked it up fast because i got what it the lesson was saying... "always be prepared for everything, No matter what"

Letters To Ha

Greed like getting what one wants just for themselves... Greed can hurt people. Love on the other hand is a strong word. I always get screwed on love. I know how to treat a girl right though. Its coming to a time where girls want bad guys, not nice guys, but it changes they figure out later that they are douche bags. Then they come to the nice guys... nice guys finish last. Most girls have thought at least a bit about being with a nice guy... thought of dating one. You are you nobody can change that hah =D just be yourself and one day love will come. The real Love not the fake kind. Right now Im just living the single life waiting for that one girl... I know she will come one day... who knows when or if i already know her or not.. but if I don't die it will happen... because i'm a lover not a hater. I like cuddling I love kissing I love romantic stuff... Im a august summer baby =D Takes time then girls would be jumping all over ha =D So for all the nice guys out there... Be patients my friends... They soon have to settle =D Just be happy for what you do have =D

Big Enough

Sometimes having a dream is enough. Enough to inspire you to create something out of nothing.

Enough to make you question that which others choose to ignore. Enough to keep you awake, when others are asleep. Enough to bring you hope, when others torment themselves in despair.

Does your dream raise your pulse? Does it make your heart beat faster? Does it make your blood rush through your veins? If not, then your dream is not big enough.
"Thinking is thinking. It requires the same amount of energy for you to think small dreams or big exciting ones." ~Andres Lara

From The cuban Guy... Homeless at 16... Millionaire at 26
(andres Lara)

Follow your dreams...
-Isaac Camacho

2 Lives

Two lives... one during the day... the other one at night. What do you prefer? day or night?... living at the moment or living in the world of imagination? Its your pick... what do you see? Darkness in heavy clouds in an empty street full of stress or sunbeams shooting through clouds and lights around with laughter?
But only will confusion come at night and at day you will go through difficult pathways that if completed the results would be everlasting happiness... But you have to gain that happiness.
At night you sleep and dream of what has happened in your day life, you may choose too dream what you want but it will always have a meaning, a deeper thought, maybe even a answer to a question.
In the day, it is only a game, maybe strategy, luck, or chance but you have to play to get what you want, you could always go back to your night life, your dream life, whenever you desire but you will never be able to leave the real sense of reality.

Something I wrote JR year in Highschool.
-Isaac Camacho

7 Stages

(Please take your time to read this. -Isaac Camacho)
Stage One: Stranger's

I did not know this girl, she came to me at in instant one day at the dinning hall. It was me Eating, right when I look up There she is walking in... Stunning... Beautiful. Like an angel a star of some kind shinning... Glowing. There it was the first thing recognized, Her smile was just so bright. She was laughing with her friends, inside I was smiling... Inside I was happy. I did not know this girl for she was just a stranger, a girl I dream of... Who knows how things will end up. All I knew is I wanted to talk to her and maybe one day she would be my Girlfriend. Yeah Friends told me good luck... I didn't think she would ever be mine... I felt I was shooting high, she was "Out Of my League". There was times where my eyes caught hers, I turned quick as if I was looking at something else. "There is no way I would ever be with her" I thought To myself.
First day of class as im sitting... just on my laptop waiting for class to start. She walks in, my eyes open as I see the same smile and girl that I saw in the dinning hall. Impossible I thought, There is no way out of all the students this girl would be in my damn class... But she was... and there I sat thinking... I might have a chance.
Thats when stage 2 hit...

Stage Two: The Chase
So there it was... My chance to actually chase for a relationship. I never talked and I never sat by her for a week. I would keep myself distant, as I gathered information on how I was going to accomplish such a insane task. When Possible, I would look and give a smile... I was happy enough to get a smile back. I would hold the door open for her... doing just about all the nice things a gentleman would do. One day I got to class early and sat in the place she would, Took out my computer and turned in my work. It happened so quick... A voice... It was her voice... in my head I didn't know what to do. It was her she was saying something to me... I fucking choked. "Is this seat taken" she said pointing at the seat by mine. Go ahead I said... Why didn't I say anything more. We sat together and I soon thought of asking her something, But the teacher made us all move to our racial Spot. We broke off in separate directions. "now she thinks i'm a total asshole" I thought. Couple days later I walk in to a class before she is leaving. We talked... But I fudged it up again. I said Derp and told her what it stands for with my friends... yeah alright she looked at me like I was stupid or Childlike. "great Now I really fucked it up, you were right Isaac she was way outta your league anyways"
This is where it gets interesting... I told my friends about it and they were like you are in a hole mister... good luck digging yourself outta that one. Yeah I thought it too. I was wakling back to the dinning hall to get dinner and there she was eating with her friend and this weird guy... like weird... I mean he is chill but social awkward. I could tell she didn't want him there sitting with them but it was hard to say no to him I guess. I manned up and was like fuck it im in college. I turned and walked towards her... She was happy to see me, she wanted an excuse to stop talking to this other guy. What else than to talk class related stuff. We talked about the readings and if she was going to do the HW. She didn't have the packet and I did. I offered to lend it to her. Guess what? I got her number... she even plugged it in my phone. Send me a text later. I looked and it was her name... Her beautiful and unique name, Not only was it her name but it had a smile face after it too... Just like this :) I was the happiest man ever. I was digging myself out of the hole. When I took her the packet with my friends... BTW we were going out clubbing. I asked her if she wanted to come... She said she really wants to but had no money. "ill spot you" I said. She came we got ready and left to the club. This was it my time to shine... We danced a little, I wanted to see if she was comfortable with dancing... she was... So I danced more and was a little close too. Well lets just say it was a really hot and we were both dancing pretty close. The way we danced was as if we were playing star roles in the dirty dancing havana nights movie. It was so romantic and Hot! There was times where I felt it was only us... only us dancing alone... together, Just her and I. It was over the dance I walked her all the way to her dorm. She asked if I wanted to watch a movie... The princess and the Frog. I did, That night we got to know each other a lot, about our past and more of who we are. That night we kissed... crazy... but it happened, I won't forget it either.
We hung out a lot, she came over, I went over it was if we were going out but without the title. It wasn't till December 11th where I asked her out... We actually went to visit her family And there we were laying... Cuddling on the couch... Then I asked... There it was... She said yes.

Stage Three: The HoneyMoon
We would do everything together, took trips to Washington... Had sleep overs... watched a ton of movies. Cooked dinner together. Visited my family and her family a ton. Had romantic little dinners. Took her out places. Everything was great... This girl was my dream... The girl I never thought I could get was mine. We kissed... Cuddled <3 It felt so long that this happened... as we grew together in a relationship I started to like her more and more everyday. Love... What a strong word... I didn't want to use it... I didn't want to say it. My past girlfriend fucked me over bad and love was evil... to me it did not exist. I let my past girlfriend so far in my life... It gave me chills to think about love. "I Love you" She said first... I didn't reply... but only explained why I did not say it back. Days turned to weeks then finally I let it out and said I love you too one day. And soon enough we were comfortable with each other. Stage Four: Comfortable We were super chill with each other, even had some paper to ask each other questions to make our relationship stronger... Yes we did have some tiny arguments and At the end we would make up and say it was for a stupid reason... usually we tried to communicate it through... to understand each other. Listening was a priority I guess, Its good in a relationship. It was a good comfortable though... we laughed... cracked each others back... told jokes... and stupid stories and all. There wasn't really a time where our tolerance was bad. I mean we were still considered the perfect cute couple. Stage Five: Tolerance We skipped this stage we were still mad in Love with each other... And I saw it going a long time, so did she... we talked about something a normal couple would... Like House color or room stuff... you know? about the future and all. we kissed and loved... went out for dinner and still had good times. Stage Six: Downhill This one hit so fast... I thought I was dreaming. I really don't know what to say but she stopped talking to me really she needed her own time she said. I let her be by herself. I let her go see her friends. I let her go out to her party without me. I did it all in hopes for her to come back and tell me what was going on. Yeah I wanted what was best for her like anyone else would. Yes we argued... and Yes I didn't approve of her going out to parties with people I didn't really know... I got to know her friends... They were amazing... took care of people lets just say... I then trusted them with her. Thats all I needed to be fine with it. I mean I don't think I was controlling... well my friends said I wasn't and neither did my family. They said this down hill came unexpectedly... maybe a misunderstanding. But soon it happend... Stage Seven: Breaking Up We basically skipped Stage 5 and half of 7. I let her be herself for about a week. we didn't talk really. I wanted her to get unstressed out with school and have friend time... i wanted things to get better so I let her be alone like she asked. One morning she texted me saying if she could come over after class. I opened the Door she was cold a little. I gave her a hug and kissed her. "I miss you" I said I saw her picking her things up she left... then I knew. "Can we talk" Yeah sure i said... She did it... She broke up with me. I didn't know what to say. This girl I just kissed and hugged just broke up with me... It hurt. It hurt a lot. why? Because I loved this girl... I really did like this girl. But now we are not together. Months have passed by and my feelings for this girl haven't changed... why would they? She still an amazing girl, still has that beautiful glimmering smile when I first saw her... Still gives those amazing hugs... I cry as I write this... and I try to cover it up. I just don't understand really. I really Don't but I guess sometimes its like that and you cant do nothing about it but let her go, That is because you love her so much it hurts to be away... It hurts that she is no longer there... you think after 2 fucking months I should be better... which I am... Im no longer thinking of suicide... that is stupid. I want to live my life. I would live it with her or without her. Im just saying she has not changed so why would my feelings change. My ex girlfriend Changed on me. She was not the girl I first met. My other one I currently miss is still who she once was. Maybe it was me who changed... maybe I was not her type. So much maybe. Sometimes I think if she was just lying to me about how much she cared... I don't think when she said I love you she was lying Or when she kissed me it was fake. We both knew what we had. So what do you say to a broken up relationship that didn't make all seven stages...? Who knows? People ask me a lot if I think Ill end up back in a relationship with her. You know what id say is if it was my choice I would. Its not my choice though, its hers. I still have feelings for her, I still care about her. Maybe one day who knows... Nobody can tell the future. If anything I fucked up someway or another... maybe one day she will let me know what I did so in the future I could better myself... so something like that does not happen again. Or maybe we get back together and go off where we left off. There is just so much things that could happen now. What I always thought the reason why she broke up with me... That actually made sense, was that she was super stressed and having a bad time trying to figure out her life and stuff. That she was unstable to have a boyfriend at the time. The words that are stuck in my head... Planted in my brain though the memory of her words.... "its over" she said... I said "like over over?".... "yes over Forever" she said.... Forever is stuck.. Planted in my head. Who knows if I would ever be in Love again... Maybe this one just fucked it up for real. Before this relationship I almost gave up on love... but it came back... there was still hope... but now Who knows... I know its there... well for some people. My parents happen to be one of those couples... 25+ years married.... I've always wanted to have something like that... Who knows though what will happen in the future... Im done controlling my life though.

Thanks if you read it all.
-Isaac Camacho

Harry Potter

I started reading the Harry Potter book Series In the start of the 2nd week of May (after Cinco De mayo). I was only going to read the first book but I kinda got hooked and needed to read the next book. Its been a month and a half... Or a little bit more. I know it would be 2 months before the 2nd part of Deathly Hallows comes out. I am currently on the 5th Book (Order Of the phoenix). I am really trying my best to get them all done Before the Final Bang! =D But summer has been so like laid back I haven't really read a lot. I really like these books, I was missing way much from not reading them. I really don't know why I have never read them. Im a Harry Potter Nerd... Really I can relate just about anything to something in Harry Potter. Its just I wish life was like that you know? like I love magic and stuff and I wish We all had wands, and we had to fight against the dark side... Like come on? wouldn't that be fun?? I think so ha Then Again I rather be trapped in Harry Potter life/book Than live my own life right now... at the moment it is currently Boring and lame. I mean I made two Best friends in college and we are now seperated... Like it sucks. I really don't have friends that Id like to hang out with... Like super good friends... Other than Woody and we did some chillan awhile ago, but like what will I do when he is gone for work? yeah.. hard life haha Well I mean at least its better than O.W.L.'s A 5th year has to take... Like seriously that shit would be so stressful and WTF? 12 inches of essay WTF is that soupposed to mean? I wouldnt like HW in the Magical life but the apparating and wand flicking would be awesome ha... oh and yes Harry Potter is Better than Twilight... no questions about it.

Well I was just taking a break from reading... I get sleepy when I read sometimes.
I've read more in the last Two months than my whole entire life.. I know sad.
Well Off to go read more... Ron is keeper! Super right?! ha
anyways
Peace
-Isaac Camacho

I once Knew a Girl

Back in High School I knew this girl, that was amazing, Funny, Nice, Well loved by a lot of people. Lets say she was one of those "Popular People". Yeah she was cute, and she was an amazing dancer. She was a cheerleader, She liked to stay fit. We were super good friends, Yeah I did have a small thing for her at once. Thats not the case. Well lets just say things didn't go in that direction, but we became really good friends. Like hanging out and stuff was great, going to the movies. Well she dating this guy, you want to say controling because thats what it was. People started hating her, who knows why but she lost her best girlfriend, because this guy came first before anything. Well She came to me because I was helping her tell them that everybody was stupid for hating her. That is was just pointless drama that she didn't need to deal with. Knowing that she had not much friends. Senior year we were super chill and guess what her and that boyfriend weren't dating for some reason no more. No I was not going to jump on that, because we were bestfriends... it was no longer like that. She got friends and there was times were we got in groups. she loved hanging out, everybody was glad she didn't have her boy friend. She moved To portland to go to school, lived there for a month and then it happend. Ex boyfriend talked to her again. Well Guess what she ended up leaving her school career and Her chance of being a blazer girl. If she would have practice all those years she would have been one, she was just good at dancing nothing was stopping her.. but this guy. She moved back to his house with his family, her mom took her phone away and her car... talk about being alone. Everybody was disapointed in her, But I never said anything... only that im here if she needs anything as a friend. We kept talking on facebook untill she deleted it. her and her boyfriend made a facebook together we were freinds for a bit until i got deleted. Guessing her BF did that. Like really? No way of contacting her we didnt talk for the longest time. I got her new number and messaged her and this is what she said "If i wanted to talk to you i would have gave you my number personally, I have my own life now and we are no longer friends" Like really? After all that i did. I was like a brother... that what she said. I helped her through problems, all the time. I still keep things secret that she has told me and stuff that I know. Once a friend always a friend, she might be with her boyfriend and he dosn't want her hanging around. specially cuz now she is preggo... Well thats the life she lives, whenever she wants me Im still going to be here for her... She hear this from a lot of people but never from me... all I want to say is Im dissapointed... really dissapointed... Life itself is the best thing in the world... why throw it out like that?

The Perfect Romance

This is my View on the Perfect Romance.

It all starts with the eyes, you look at the person... you feel as it is love at first sight, something that you know it has to be. You feel the butterflys, tingling sensations all over your body, she makes you feel light like your floating.
The first words, your so nervous, your shaking, sweating... you know you can't mess it up, because you want a chance at her heart. It turns out like it was something totally diffrent you messed up and maked yourself look like an idiot, but she didn't mind... Guess it was cute.

She ends up liking you and you end up liking her. The small looks end up turning in to long stares and dreaming about the person. Asking the question what if? you know you want to be with her already.

The first date, you do anything to look at your best, and when you see her... the jaw drops automatically. Shes stunning, beautiful all around.

Days turn to weeks as your like is stronger, a stronger connection. Ending up hanging out more and more. Your parents love her, her parents love you.

You are known as the cutest couple there has been.

School college, you stay together cuddling up at night, that is now that you are boyfriend and girlfriend. Watching movies going out to romantic dinners. Taking random pictures and being yourself around your lover.

Love... It pops up... Is it real?

You have to love when you can.

I love you he says, I love you too she says in return.

A peck on the soft lips, you share hugs and again more cuddling and kissing.

Your getting older together, everything seems to be perfect.

You graduate college and move in to the work force.

Now You ask for her hand in marriage, You heart beating and beating faster and faster... her face lights up... as behind you the sunset on a beautiful beach in euroupe. "I Do" she says and as you feel like you were the luckiest man ever you pick her up and say I love you so much. You lay in the sand on a big huge blanket and sleep under the stars but the most precious one of all is laying right next to you.

Best wedding ever is all i can say
Honeymoon around the world for half a year.

Your getting paid for a great job, the both of you. Money is not a problem, You have a house and are able to travel when wanted.

The first kid. Happy tears run down your cheeks as you say to yourself im going to be a dad... you tell her... your wife... Im going to be the best dad ever.

You grow old together, loving, laughing.

You pass it on to your kids... about how you mom and dad met.

Reading harry potter to the kids, opening presents on christmas morning. Celebrating Thanks Giving with the family. Everything is just so perfect.

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Thats what I want it to be some day. Im a lover not a hater. Love when you can... you cant predict death.

I love you, Save me a spot up there okay beautiful?
Yes I will hun... I love you.
Shes in her death bed.. your both old. You hold her hand the last couple seconds of her last couple secounds before her real life begins.

Shes gone, but you don't cry... You kids miss their mom. You tell them, shes in a better place now and one day I will have to leave and you will be in charge to keep the name alive.

Shes always... since the first look she glued her love in you heart.

Now its you waiting for death to come... laying there... you know you will see her soon.
You smile before your dead.

You son says "At least they both died happy"
Love you mom and dad... Ill see you guys up there some day.

Perfect romance...

One day right... One day.

-Isaac Camacho

Update

Well I sold my car finally, By jetta... You were my first car and I had a lot of memories with you. It has been almost 3 years having that car it was about time to get some new wheels. I always treat my cars with great respect, I try to treat them like I would treat a girl... But see don't take that wrong because I love Cars, I love girls too =D You got to treat your girl and your car right. For instance you have to take care of your car wash it, change the oil and when somethings wrong fix it before it gets worse. With your girl you have to protect her, make sure she's happy, take her out, do something nice for her... and if there is a problem fix it before it gets worse. My jetta is gone, sometimes you just get tired of it, sometimes you need something new. You just feel like you hate it all and you never want it ever again. I loved my jetta but its time for a new hot looking girl, something brand new... looks hot, sexy, makes everybody want to just stare, yes Im talking about a Kawasaki Ninja baby! =D what were you thinking of haha ;D
Im going to start of with a 249cc Im little and im 135 pounds so I could go fast... Im not in a relationship at the moment so im going to baby the shit out of this new bike... Its going to be like a new puppy a brand new love... oh how I miss it.

It is either this one or a Kawasaki green one or Just straight Black, Who knows which color but I can't wait... Oh and its saves gas too and when people ask me for rides ill be like yeah if you dont mind going on a sports bike =D

Thats it for now, Have to do some paper work right now

-Isaac Camacho

Deep... Do you Understand?

I have always felt like I think diffrently from a lot of people. Well everybody thinks diffrently but Sometimes its hard to explain why i think this way.
I look ahead for everything, cutting out possiblities and all. Its just weird and unexplainable sorta... well at least Its hard to do it. The way I feel Is insane, stupid insane. It will only work if I keep it all to myself, if somebody knows then the circle... the bond is broken, so everything then has to be re-done and re-thought. You path always leads to another. It never ends until death. It all started as strangers, the looks, the eyes, the door. The sparkle the light. The OMG. Then the Silence doing anything you could to get closer... friends... class... school. It all is put together as the start. what makes you what makes eachother. Then the years pass as soon its 3 years but still all the same, no matter what. Then its born again just hit the restart button and you come back to it always no matter what as long as its there. This is what hit me so hard... I came back and it was not the same... I no longer felt the same. It was diffrent, because there was something more important in my life. That which triggerd my mind to think of somebody else rather than what it usually does, But I couldnt... I just couldnt do it. Why though? when It interested me so much at one point and now it feels like I only want one thing. I have to act like Im happy for it too. Have to act like im glad. This has happend before, and its crazy to my eyes... I am not gonna let it pass like it did before... I regret doing it and now I pay... But I have learned and I wont let it happen twice... so either I go do it or give up... I rather lose trying knowing I fight for what I belive in... So hard to understand when my mind is going so fast, faster than I could type...... What can I say I'm A deep thinker... Some people say its good some people say its bad... Ive gotten this far in life... why change it when it has done me so well.

-Isaac Camacho

Leaving The dorms...

Well done with finals, im hoping to get a 3.0 GPA or above.
This term was hard because of my relationship break up... nobody said those were going to be easy. It really screwed me over, I was depressed for a long time. Last two weeks I made up work and was positive... Im a great guy, nice guy, I am smart... Some what good looking ;D haha Full Ride Scholar, I can dance and cook... Yeah im selling myself out for other women out there haha jk. Well I have been thinking postive a lot which is good =D Well It was sad to leave the dorms, there was just so much memories there and stuff, it sucked moving from portland... If I could I would have stayed... But fucking parking tickets took all my mo fo money away haha.
Well Im back in my home Town of Corvallis Oregon home of the Beavers!!! Dad is in alaska fishing, he will be gone for 6 months. I wont be working this summer really. I'll be doing a lot of community service like a good kid, I love helping others out, God gave me hands to help others, thats what I shall use them for. Well Today was that day Half a year it would have been. Her birthday is today, I already said Happy Birthday though. Shout out to all those people that have broken up with their ex's... Don't never forget their birthday no matter what happend... does not mean you can be like "oh Im not going to say happy birthday because... so and so on" Don't be a douche bag. Remember the girls birthday no matter what. So short but yet seems so long, I feel like just last week I was just seeing her walk into the dinning hall. Its been almost a year since that day.

Well Let Summer Begin Folks

Live Laugh and Love guys!

-Camacho

Just a Fast one...

So Finals week, Just did my Acting one today and I feel like I did a really good job. All the shit from my dorm wall is all gone. I have one more final, which is tomorrow at 8am.... That is my last morning class ever! haha Well Things have been going great these last couple of days =D Positive energy... I need to finish my Goblet of fire before I leave because I dont want to Come back to Portland and Turn it back in haha. Well I Should leave Portland Friday night.

-Isaac Camacho

A Love Story

You are no longer by my side, Beautiful
Inside I only feel solitude
If I can no longer see you
Because God made me love you
Just to make me suffer more

You always were the reason for my existence
To love you for me was a religion
In your kisses I found
The heat they brought upon me
The Passion, and the love
Its a love story
there is no story so equal
It made me realize
all the good and all the bad

it gave me light to my life
Turning it off afterwards
what life so obscured
Without your love I cannot live

This is a song That my Dad taught me how to play on the Guitar and I always wanted to Translate it by myself and all so here it is. Oh its written by NANA MOSKOURI
A quote that said after the song "Love alone is the complete story of a women, But only an episode of a man's"

-Isaac Camacho

Life as it is ha ha

The past four weekends were story telling weekend.

First weekend was cinco de mayo weekend which was amazing, I got to work had an amazing even for my Race and social Justice Class. We also went out to Some OSU parties... which are fun haha, always nights to remember =D

Second weekend I was off to corvallis again, this time because most frats where back from shasta from the past weekend there was a TKE military party which was great but super hot in the basment. my friend and I left and hit up my other friends frat... here is the story my friend was no where to be found so a random dude let us in... guess what ha I took one for the team and chewed up a goldfish, worth it though in the long run ;D let me just say... another extreme sushi eating at another level ha... then Sunday was church which is always great because I love god and I'm never afraid to say it!

I also go to so one of my best girlfriends which she is so awesome and make some yougurt from scratch... it filled my taste buds! She is practically the coolest girl who is not family member... Derp! Well we took pictures together for the first time... crazy we have been friends for the longest time but we never found a single picture... we changed that =D

Third week... well I posted it my mind went crazy before hitting up the 420 house in corvallis, to my knowledge because I am a camacho I could be accepted anywhere ha. I was busting flips outside in the trampoline so I was a main attraction ;D anyways so on so forth hit the emergency room and its not untill today that I have fully recoverd I feel fine now... but the hospital waz crazy... felt like dying, glad to be alive still! #lovelife! #LiveLaughLove btw good words to live by!

4th weekend I had girls over for the concert... usher and akon, they spent the night here and all, played some call of duty! They all right... def not better than me haha I love call of duty!
Anyways went to seattle watched mexico vs ecuador sat in club seats, saw gio and memo! Which awesome! Whent to the space needle saw cool people then went to a mexican party! I love dancing! It has been forever since I've danced to mexican music so I danced a lot! Well I slept woke up got dropped of in Chahalis phone died called up a friend walked up I5 got stopped by the cops rode the back seat, read harry potter for ever... good book btw! Stranded alone no phone for 4 hours! Met roomates grandma... she's awesome.. went to the casino gambled was great and now I'm laying in bed typing this on my phone cool!

This week is time to study and get good grades for my final term before summer! So today is all study maybe a cod or harry potter break but all time for studies today!

Well adios amigos!

Eyes

Just a little Free-write, Poetry?? ha

They are there, I can see.
The vision blinds me, hurts me.
Sadly the still love me.
Its dark, I can't see.
Where is the light switch, where are you?
I hear you, I can sense you... But My eyes cant see you.
I hurt, shocks of heavy vibrations from my toe to my ears.
Hearts beating faster, faster, and faster.
Blood flow and the eyes are still there.
Thoughts are still there.
Where is the light switch, Where are you?
I cant touch you for some reason.
I cant walk up and speak.
But my eyes, My eyes connect with yours.
But why can they connect when its dark?
If I could touch and hold, I would give up my eyes to do so.
I would give up oxygen to feel your touch.
Im gone, my eyes are falling apart.
Im drowning, help me... Please I beg you.
I cannot swim, my arms, legs are dysfunctional.
as if I were stunned.
Im underwater, nobody is helping.
Drowning in to the deep water, darkness down below.
Up above my eyes see light.
Sun rays shooting through the water.
I stop paying attention to my breathing.
The rays look beautiful, Dont they?
I dont see you.
no signs of help.
My eyes see the water and the sun light.
I am still drowning, but why am I not feeling pain.
I am going to die, Drowning.
But my eyes find this so beautiful.
My eyes begin to drift away... You are long gone.
I am going to die Here today.
Glad my eyes get to see something beautiful before death.
I wish it were you, but I got this.
What a Wonderful Death.

-Isaac Camacho