Would Have been...

Today Would have been 5 months, Its so weird. Five months does not seem like a lot does it. My longest relationship was exactly 8 months. Why did this one feel longer? well I have thought up some Ideas why. I spent way more time with my other Ex. We did so much together, and shared amazing memories together. One thing for sure, Her family and I were and still are Im guessing pretty close. I myself am a family guy, I love my family. Her family and I were pretty close. We dated for only 5 months but have known each other since beginning of the year. We both said that it felt years being together, I dont know if that was good or bad... anyways.

I want to say something about Love. Yes if you spell it backwards it is EVOL (evil) haha joke.
Love is hard thing to find. What is love? I think Everybody in this world has only one Love. Like Soul-mates. Some find there partner they are destined to be with and some never find their true love. True Love is Forever, in my opinion... at least till death... but I think you can still love each other in heaven that is =D
I don't consider my past relationships being in Love, at least being really in love. I told all my girlfriends I loved them, and more to my recent Ex. She was my love at the time, You "were" my everything... at the time. I did think we were going to be together for a long time, we both did actually. Why would you date someone that you knew you weren't going to last... Its just pointless. I just thought her and I were ment to be together... But I guess now we will never know.

Love is out there... Somewhere... It will hit you unexpectedly. Don't go looking for love, you wont find it... Let it come to you.

This is a song that really was close to how I felt.

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn?t realize it at the time
I can?t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don?t really expect you to either
It?s just... I don?t even know
Just listen?

You?re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I?m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn?t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it?s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn?t want to get hurt
But I didn?t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn?t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn?t have hurt me like I ain?t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don?t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You?re number one, always in my heart
And now I can?t believe that our love is torn apart

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ?cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you?re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can?t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I?m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/you-were-my-everything-lyrics-aviation.html ]

Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I?m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ?cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking:]
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but?
No matter what, you?ll always be in my heart
You?ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can?t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I?m still there
I don?t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn?t think you would ever do me like this
I didn?t think you?d wanna see me depressed
I thought you?d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I?m nothing to you, you?re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I?m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I?m dying

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ?cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking:]
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we?ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy